On dancing...

The only essential philosophical question that we can ask is: "Why am I not joyfully dancing right now?"

~Nietzsche 

Exactly! I keep asking the same question almost everyday, and I have different answers, or excuses let's say. I always felt that the only thing that would make me whole is to dance freely, cause I feel like flying while dancing. Every cell of my body sizzles with pleasure while I'm moving with music or any tune. It's a shame that I'm not a professional dancer and that I have to fill my days with many other things. Whereas I used to dance all the time when I was little... perhaps my memories of an earlier lifetime were more pristine then. I somehow feel a connection to Isadora Duncan, as surreal as it sounds, I have the vision of the same flying posture as hers. Anytime I imagine myself dancing, I see myself flying in the air with open arms and legs, head leaning backwards. She had died at the age of 50 when her long flowing scarf got caught in the rear axel of her car. Is it a coincidence that I always have neck problems and neck-hernia?! 10 years ago, a doctor had asked me, if I had any car accident? "Not that I know of" I had answered. 

Regression therapists say that past-life traumas can effect one's health in a later lifetime. If you have chronic health problems without any reason and if doctors can not find a solution, it may be because of the past experiences. As someone gone through hypnosis, I will tell you more later on my own past-lives. Anyhow, I am still trying to push my schedule to fit a 1-hour dance lesson per week, but it's not enough. Am I still hoping to be a full-time dancer one day? Maybe, who knows. Why is life pushing us to be unhappy, joyless, danceless, laughterless creatures? Why do we feel ashamed to be happy when majority of the world suffers? Do we also suffer? Or can we and should we forget the delusional world order? Can we solely concentrate on cosmic order? Yes, this is my paradox... there is the answer: because of this paradox, we can't just get up and dance! 

Dear mothers and fathers, hear me out! Let your kids just be... Discover the real urge in them, and then encourage them. You wouldn't want to be blamed one day for their dissatisfaction in their professions or lives. After all, all of us are here only temporarily!